Back to the one I love

So, last week, I had to fly back to the States just to work one day. Stupid, but I had to do it. So Alyx and I flew and what was supposed to be five hard days turned into a horrible, too long, seven days. Well it wasn't all horrible.

When I landed into Seattle, it wasn't quite the same as the home in Utah, but I felt so happy to be in the country I love. I can't quite explain it, but there is such a difference and it just felt good to be walking on American soil (you know what I mean). But even when I was surrounded by family members that I missed and haven't seen for almost a month, I left my heart back in Japan. The first night was definitely hard. The first night sleeping alone since I got married. I did miss Jason for the whole entire time, but with each added day the ache got worse.

For those who know our story, Jason and I had spent a lot of time together before we married in such a short time. Through being friends, dating, engagement and for the time being married, we've never EVER gone five days without seeing each other, not even four. But this trip took longer than I thought it would, we went almost seven days without seeing each other.

I was already suffering just from the time difference, every day, only getting 2-4 hours of sleep at night time in Utah and passing out from noon to 4 in the afternoon. But as hard as that was, being away from the one I love  was soo much harder. There were times when I just wanted to cry but because of lack of sleep, I couldn't release the pain and loneliness I felt. On Saturday, I tried to catch a flight to Seattle, the plane filled up, I tried a few hours later and I came soo close to getting on the plane, but once again it was full. I couldn't bear it, I lost it and cried. Sunday morning, I prayed and prayed. My family prayed for me. Jason was praying and went on a 12 hour fast for me. We needed each other. A miracle happened and I got on that 1st flight out of there. I know it might not seem like a miracle to some. But for me it was an answer to my prayers and to others. When I landed in Seattle and from there to Osaka. I was grinning and happy to be back in Japan, because that is where my heart had stayed, with Jason. Last night, I had so much happiness and energy, I felt like a little kid again. I actually did jump up and down with excitement several times, not caring if I looked like a crazy American. lol. Which I know, I am pretty crazy. :)

It's amazing what time spent away from your loved one does to you, it was difficult and I hated it, but it made the every day moments seem so much sweeter and the little things just a bit bigger. It's so nice to be back with my wonderful husband, who is for sure my better half. :)