Valentine's Day . . . the bitter with the sweet

My Valentine's Day had it's ups and downs. 

Let me just tell you even though I really wanted breakfast to be perfect for Jason . . . it wasn't. I didn't get to completely finish his gift and my dessert I made didn't exactly come out the I wanted it to either. 

But the worst part of the day was finding something bad had happened to two of my sisters. All because of the man who should have been a father instead of a horrible monster. My heart has broken many times because of him. I've been sad, and mad at him for many things in my life and made some poor choices as a result of how he's treated me when I was younger. But this I believe is the ultimate top thing I've been furious with him at. It's one thing to hurt me, another entirely to hurt my sisters to the point where one has to run away just so he can stop being physically abusive to the other. It made me physically ill to learn about what happened. I wish I could have protected them. But all I can do is pray for them, that they won't let him screw up their lives and future. That they will not be in any more danger and that they won't let him ruin the image of men everywhere. Because as hard as it is to find good men in the world, there are some out there. I hope they will be safe while dating, and follow the Spirit. That when it is time to decide who they will marry, they won't choose a man who will hurt them. 

Anyway, that was the bitter.

Now for the sweeter parts . . . 

My adorable husband bought me my favorite flowers the night before and gave them to me. :) We were able to be together most of the morning and then he had to go to school/work. I took care of my boys and put them down for their naps. I then started to work on finishing Jason's gift. What did I give him?

80 origami hearts

1 for each day from Valentines to our Anniversary. 

On each heart I had written a reason why I loved him, or something I loved about him.

I had most of them finished when he said he was on his way home. With both Alyx and William already awake, I hurried to take care of them and put the hearts all over our living room walls. Which was quite difficult . . . taking care of a toddler and a newborn and rushing around like crazy. He came home and was quite surprised. :) He did not see that one coming at all. He gave me a kiss and read a number of them, then gave me my gift. 

My favorite candy bar, a really sweet thoughtful card that he wrote in that I will cherish, and a book called, "Furry Logic Love". He bought it because he knows we understand each other's unique sense of humor. I wanted to share some thoughts from the book. Some are funny, some are cute, and some are totally . . . interesting shall we say. lol.

Your love may be as close as I will ever get to heaven.    Jason says that my love is heaven. ;)

I'm sure I could make you happy, if only you'd lower your standards drastically.     I know that I didn't have to lower mine. He on the other hand . . . 

You are not perfect- but some of your imperfections are strangely attractive. 

I have you, you have me: at least one of us is lucky.     I'll be the lucky one. :) 

Am I too much for you? Or not enough?

As long as I have you, there's just one other thing I'll always need- tremendous self-control. 

Anyone can be passionate . . . but it takes real lovers to be silly.    Jason and I are pretty silly people.

How would you rate me, on a scale of wonderful to marvelous?

Caution: you are in danger of becoming essential to my way of life.      Heads up, Jason already is essential.

I want you, happiness, and chocolate, but not necessarily in that order.

You've told me you love me, but there's no harm in repeating it endlessly.

Loved the book, card, candy and him. 

Dinner turned out a success and even though dessert didn't look as good as I hoped it would, it still tasted really super yummy. :) My husband is soo good to me, I'm really blessed to have him as my eternal companion. I love him and my love for him grows stronger all the time. 

My Jr. Jason look-a-like, William Anthony Wilber

So my newest little angel is here!!!

William Anthony Wilber

There are some reasons why we chose this name. 

For my first boy, Alyxander Michael Wilber. Michael came from Jason's family, middle name of Jason and Jason's dad's name and probably somewhere further down the line. 

Well I wanted a family name from my side in our next son's name. Whether it would be his first or middle. 

William is from my mom's side. There are four William's and the oldest one that I know of I had studied and know stories of him and his wife from days when I was in Young Women's. He's kinda one of my ancestral heroes. 

Anthony has a special place in my heart, as well as my mother's. Growing up she told me that if I was a boy she would have named me Anthony. She loved that name so much and never got to use it. I grew up loving it too. So maybe she never got to use it, but she is getting her Anthony through me. :)

Sooo . . . William arrived on January 29th 2013 at 4:20 pm, after 9 something hours of induced labor and three days of contractions that refused to stay consistent, which was super SUPER frustrating. Let me tell you. Jason and I left early and it was some of the worst winter weather we had. Everywhere we looked, there was snow. Roads weren't even plowed yet. The freeway was somewhat manageable but still very scary. We got to the hospital safely and without car troubles (haha) thank goodness. At 7, I was induced and at first is was fine, but the pain and contractions quickly escalated and became intense even though I wasn't that far dilated. Hence, being induced, because it forces your body to go into labor. Jason and I watched Sherlock Holmes and part of Seven Brides for Seven Brothers. 

My doctor had to break my water and I held quite a bit of water unlike my first pregnancy. They told me I had around 4 pounds of water or more in me. I was also fully effaced and William was already in perfect position. So when I was dilated to 4 I was ready to push. But of course had to hold off. So I tried my best to breathe through horrible and mega painful contractions. Worst was when they came back to back and didn't give me a break. All through it, Jason helped me. :) He was amazing. I was super close to giving in to an epidural because the pain was so bad. When I was at a 7, I couldn't hold back any longer. I told my nurse that I really HAD to push. She called my doctor who was there in a few minutes. They helped me hold off a few minutes longer and then FINALLY I could push. Took a lot more effort and pushing than with Alyx. But  then . . . he was there!!!

Jason's first comment was that William had a lot of hair. When I saw him, I saw it was RED hair!!! :) I was super happy. I wanted a baby with red hair, because Jason had red hair as a baby and was super cute. But not only does William have red hair like Jason did, he is a chubby little guy and looks soo much like Jason. Which made me even happier as I wanted a son who looked like Jason. Now all I'm hoping for is that he has Jason's green eyes. hee hee. :)

I was so happy. I was given William as soon as Jason cut his umbilical cord. I held him for quite a bit and was happy they let me hold him for so long. :) My boy was finally here, with me and Jason. We were proud parents and everything was right in our little world.

Alyx met his brother William for the first time and instantly loved him. :)

My Wilber boys/men :)

Our Family!! 

Also  . . . my boys do smile . . . without the gas. ;)

Welcome to 2013!!

So I apologize I haven't written for a while. There has been times when I thought of doing it, but that's all I did . . . think about it. I was either too lazy or too busy to post the goings on in my life for a while.

Christmas was great!! Except the few days before where Jason and Alyx were both sick and I was trying to take care of them while not getting sick myself. Then after they were better, I felt like I had the flu, and couldn't eat much because my little baby boy was scrunching up my stomach and left no room at all for comfort and spent ALOT of time in the bathroom. :( But ya Christmas was great. lol. Jason surprised me by giving me the Bourne movies, which I love. :) I gave him a super really cool remote control helicopter, and we got Alyx some animal magnets for the fridge and an elephant toy that blows balls out of the trunk kinda thing.

A little after Christmas, we lost access to our warm water due to our pipes being frozen because of the cold and I mean FREAKING COLD air. :( So for six days we went without it, not fun at all. No showers, no washing dishes, limited meals because the lack of clean dishes and frustration all around. Let me tell you, not fun at all.

New Year's was great. Jason and I watched a movie, and we went to bed before 12. No way, could I even try to stay up that late. It's hard to sleep in the night anyway, why am I going to lose sleep in my pregnant state by choice? So that's how we welcomed in the new year. lol. Yep! We were sleeping. :) Ha ha suckers!!!

Jason started his new schedule at school and we are both loving it. He actually can stay home long enough for me to make him breakfast now!! He also gets to spend more time with us, his family! Can you imagine?!? Ya, so we're pretty happy about that.

Last week, we had a scare. We thought I had maybe gone into labor early. It was kinda hard to tell. I was super SUPER mega tight, more so than the braxton hicks but what was really the scary part was . . . it was difficult for me to breathe. Like it felt like my lungs had no room to take all the air in that they needed. So for five minutes or so, I was trying to be calm and relax but terrified out of my mind that it was so difficult to breathe. Jason was trying hard to help me to be comfortable. But I couldn't because I was in so much pain from the lack of oxygen, really the tightness wasn't painful at all, just super tight and uncomfortable. Obviously I didn't go into labor and everything was fine, but it was just a little wake up call.

Now, today is two weeks away from my due date. I am feeling pretty calm and prepared for going into labor any time now. I am excited to meet my new little boy and to hold him in my arms. I do have certain days in my mind that I think would be really cool if he were to be born on them, but really will be happy whenever he does come. :) I can't wait to see my Wilber boys together. My men, my family. All together.