Faith

A few weeks ago, I had thoughts popping up, in my dreams, while I was reading and just doing normal every day things. Lost and confused as of what to do and if I was really getting them from the Spirit or if it was just me going crazy, I prayed and went to the Temple for help and guidance. There I received my answer and knew what the Lord was wanting me to do. I accepted it and told Jason.


Funny thing, you can get answers from the Lord, but that doesn't make things easier. In the end, we still have our agency of what to do. 


I was a bit unsure of the future but continued on with my life. 


Up until last night I was starting to believe I can do what the Lord has in store for me. I should know by now that Satan is continually working on me. He pulled me down, dragging my thoughts of doubt and my ability to do what my Heavenly Father wants me to do.  After a while I started to pray, pleading for another way to do his will. I felt horrible. A failure and utterly ridiculous. Who am I to ask God if I can change what he wants of me? To have things go my way? I didn't see how I was supposed to do what he wanted of me. I thought there was no way I was to accomplish his will. Finally I fell asleep and later woke up feeling drained and weak. Alone and not sure. 


Continuing on, the outside world fit my mood. Dreary and depressing. Thoughts kept coming to my mind. How am I supposed to do this? I don't think I could really do what is needed of me. Then I remembered a scripture . . .

1 Nephi 3:7

7 And it came to pass that I, Nephi, said unto my father: I will go and do the things which the Lord hath commanded, for I know that the Lord giveth no commandments unto the children of men, save he shall prepare a way for them that they may accomplish the thing which he commandeth them.

Nephi was asked to get the plates, even after King Laban had tried to kill him and his brothers. With faith, he followed the Spirit and did what he needed to do, knowing that the Lord was with him. 


I was tried and tested. Now, when it comes to things that I think are impossible or if I feel inadequate, I need to remember to put my faith in my Father in Heaven. If he wants me to do something, if I do my best, he will give me the strength and help that I need to accomplish the task he asks of me.